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This is the part that i hate the most.
Big Family reunion.
All those aunties and uncles.
Showing the best they had.
Example: My son just back frm...Got high pay..etc..on and on..
My daughter's bf is lawyer..good man..etc..on and on..
Sicko.
No one wants to listen about that.
You got your health problem settle enough.
My family reunion.
Parents fighting about what is the best for the house.
Cash Cash Cash out!
Hate it.
Although i can see that most of the people were so excited.
But im not at all.
Gathering.
Friends gathering.
Example: Where are you work now?
What are you do now?
Hows the relationship?
On and on.
Good and yet Suck.
I prefer to pass it like normal.
Not that big.
If im rich,Everyday will be new year for me ;P
And i dont need to see all those fark faces.
Aint that true?
Yup,Imma weirdo.
I hate places that full of people.
I mean clown.
People make-up like clowns
So all the clowns in the town.
Showing the best they had on their body.
I think they look like clown.
Nothing attracts me.
Of course i need to attend all those stuff.
Just for friend sake.
Not to ruin anything.
Not party bloopers.
Just party go-ers.
Sorry,No offence.
I type what i like.
PEACE

♥

Spree-ing till broke-ing

Shopping Spree.
I did it few days ago with my sister.
Both of us felt like in HEAVEN.
We ran here and there.
Picking up the right dress.
Picking up the right shoes.
Picking up the right accesories.
Cant deny that it is Awesome.
We only took two hours to finish up the cash.
We got what we want.
*Damn*
Its Fantastic.
RM550 off.
Big hole for my saving.
And there they go.
We said,
Bye AS,Hello Ipoh.
Bye Ipoh,Hello KL.
And now,
Bye KL,Hello AS.
Back to the boring place.
A place with no fun at all.
Say Hello to housechores.
Say GoodBye to shopping.
Safe journey back.
Here's few shot.

٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ HIDE ٩(̾●̮̮̃̾•̃̾)۶ AND ٩(-̮̮̃-̃)۶ SEEK ٩(-̮̮̃•̃)۶

I wondered.
Where have you gone?
How have you been?
Is everything alright there?
Silentness.
Is all i got from you.
Loneliness.
Is conquering me.
Happiness.
Is staying far far away from me.
Smile.
I never know how to make it.
Fake smile.
Is all i did.
However,Whenever you are,
I hope everything is cool for you.

When i hide from you.
You seek for me.
When i seek for you.
You hide from me.
This is a game?
Or farking what?
I dont want to be involved in any farking games anymore.
Stay the farking out of shit.
Im tired of farking waiting.
I know i will get nothing not a shit.

Bad day.
Started early in the morning.
While still surfing on dreams.
Strangers called.
Butterflies in the stomach.
Times up.
Wake the farking up.
Im chasing the time for the damn whole day.
Im tired.
Someone please stop the time.
Even just a second.
I will be =D
I just need a break.
Missing my dearie's shoulder.
I need their hug.
Someone please hug me.
Im so frustrated.
Why not the damn farking shit bless when we have problems?
I know im not supposed to scold.
But it is just on my nerves.
I drove for thirty minutes for no direction to go.
I think.
I think im gonna change something in life.
I know they wont like it either.
I dont farking care.
Im tired.
I just need a second to talk to HIM.
God bless please.

Another Day Has Gone ❤

Time past fast.
We moved on quickly.
I can feel that time is running and we are chasing.

I woke up at eleven.
Had a funny and yet happy dream.
Back to the place where im in primary canteen.
At the table sat with my bestie.
We shared our food.
She bought a plate of nasi lemak,
I bought a cup of sirap.
Weird huh?
That's me back to Standard 2.
Weird huh?
I back to the time where i found myself free from problems.
I know nothing about shit of life.
I only know that i played and i enjoyed every tick of the moments.
That primary bestie.
I wondered where is she now.
Hope she's alright in life.
Happy as usual as she.

❤

Dad called.
I took my braveness out and asked about further studies.
He said nothing but agreed with my choice.
He only said read him the amount before class started.
Then he reminded me about the security of places and stuff.
I waited no more,
Grabbed my cell and called kaka.
She dint answer the call.
I called bobo.
We chat and discussed.
Hopefully things will get to the place as we plan.
Since the plan is already planned.
So hopefully will make it.
As i dont plan for stuff.
I fucked up the plan most of the time.
I giving up in planning.
In a day, I can had so many solutions to problem.
I guess some one heard my S.O.S
And there it goes another problem in a day.
I worried less.
I planned more.

❤

I saw a pathetic news from TV.
Dragon boat tragedy.
Teacher and students drown while training.
It really makes my teardrops.
Heartache.
Why must it be that way?
I guess we will never know what will happen next.
May God have them rest in peace.
Another tragedy.
Girl dies in freak tv mishap.
Shocked me out when i read the news.
The cutie was pinned under the Tv set.
Sad.God bless her.
Another news that i found out funny and satisfied.
The Bad Ass that burnt down churches were arrested.
The point that get all of them arrested is one of the idiot had burns on his hands.
Funny.
Burn churches and in the other way round burn own hands.
Balasan la tu.Padan muka. =P
Somehow or rather,
What done is done.
Those need to pay gotta pay somehow.
I just wondered,
If we really read newspaper everyday,
We will find out that there always a story inside.
Weird or freaking or insane.

The letter of "L"

Have you ever understand the meaning of LOVE?
Well, Funny how the way people describe it.
Different people Different definition.
Some positive.
Some negative.
Did i ever sense the smell of L?
I wondered.
I think i do.
But,
somehow or rather,
A past.
A history.
People tend to say "We need to look forward".
That's what my friend told me.
That's what i told my friend.
But,
I never want to look forward.
If i ever given a chance,
I will choose to stay,
I will choose to pause,
I will choose to stop.
Pause and stop the time that i want to stay.
The moments that i

❤

The moments that i adore.
Childhood =)


For the people that i loved and missed.
I always love and miss you.
Still waiting.

I believe that one day we will be me and you together.

New Me?Or The Same Old Me?

This is not the first blog i had. Ive been blogging since..Humph..I also not remember..
Well, How am i going to start it?
As usual.
Hate when things not done.
Hate when things went wrong.
Hate when i went to wrong direction.
Im questioning myself.
The Old One?
The New One?
Still Same?

Back to the 2009.
I went through a lot of obstacles in life.
Thanks God.
I graduated.
Im tripping with besties.
I went for a job.
I quit my job.
Im back to where i belong. HOME.
It doesnt sounds great for me.
Well, at first it could be.
But for long, Sorry.
I fall,
I Crawl,
I break it through.
I Survived.
But still as Weak as usual.
I struggled hard.
I guess everyone does.


Back to 2010.

Everyone wish that it would be a great year.
Some even said is a Good starting in life.
Well, I dont think so.
It has been a nightmare for me since the beginning of the year.
Will it be a good year? Nah~~
Forget about it.
I would rather believe in myself.
Do it in my way.
Trusted to something that aint true would harm us.
Example: ME
Thought that someone will get better.
Thought that something will be better.
Thought that sometimes will be easy.
But it is all just a fantasies.
Its just fantasize my dream.
Im a daydreamer.
I dreamed as much as i can.
Why?
Because i know i wont get it in reality.
People said make it in reality.
But do they actually do that?
Do they achieve it?
Who knows?
Only they said, they speak, they talk.
End of the conversation.

For Now.

As in for now, what should i do?
Few days, few weeks ago.
I stucked up.
I farked up.
I damned up.
I need god damn someone to pump and flush my mind.
Well, He heard me.
He brought me some few people to flush my brain.
New friends ive met.
Old friends ive known.
Friends friends giving direction.
They brought me for a movie.
They brought me for a tea.
They even cigs up and beers up with me.
Sharing their thoughts.
Letting me explore their life.
Ive learnt from them.
You know who you are.
I wanna say " THANK YOU".
XoXo


Coming up.

Miracle gave me some options to choose.
I gotta talk to Dad.
I gotta decide.
I gotta move.
Think no more, Run no more.
Face the fact, Take the fact.
Make it like an Independent creatures.
Dont shame on parents.
Dont blame on people.
Screwed up problems.
Say HI to solutions.